Not So Empty Nest Days

Cherishing the days past while moving towards the days ahead, BHG

The Shadow Killer

This is the day that the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.
Psalm 118:24

Today is another bittersweet milestone for my little quad family. My son, my middle child, just turned 21 today. To be honest, I don’t know how I am handling it. On one hand, I’m excited for the life GOD has laid out for him. On the frustrating hand, I don’t want my “onlyest son” to grow up! Heck I don’t want any of them to! Is that wrong or selfish? Probably but it’s real.

What’s also real is that they ARE growing up and WILL leave eventually. And with that, in rolls the Scripture for today. This IS the day that the LORD has made! And every day I am given here after. I pray that I get to see my kids living out the good seed GOD has given me to plant. I pray that I get to see what He had me speak over them and watch what He does in their marriages, families and ministries. I pray I get to pour into my grand kids and perhaps even great grand kids. But, THIS is the day that the LORD has made and so this is the day I will live in and in doing so I am teaching my kids to.

This verse is also the anchor GOD used to keep me grounded last April when my old running mate, Depression and Suicide, decided to come pay me a visit. As much as they tried to tell me I wasn’t loved by my kids and how much poison I had poured into them and how unprepared they were for life, this verse is what GOD used to keep me. For every condemning thought that came in, “THIS is the day that the LORD has made you will rejoice and be glad in it,” is what I heard. I still remember sitting in front of my moms house after a very disappointing and frustrating day with my kids, how out of control they seemed, how rebellious and defiant they seemed to be, how ungodly my son looked walking to and from his girlfriends house knowingly defying what GOD had said and my daughters no motivation and no care or concern of godly things. I say there hearing Suicide say with fake concern dripping with every word, “you know they are better off without you. You know you are standing in their way and hindering them.” And in a smaller, gentler and more sincere voice I let hearing, “you will rejoice and be glad in it.” I’m so thankful for my kids! I had even texted them “suicide texts” and was ready to go except, this WAS the day the LORD had made! How was I going to leave it early?! Why that’s like being the guest of honor and leaving the party early!! No!! Just like at the party hosted in your honor, I was going to rejoice and be glad in it! I’m so thankful they all texted back!

My nest is getting closer to being empty, but not of hope and lessons and adventures with my kids. No, just of the putter patter of their little feet. And even though that saddens me some days still, I have, am and will continue to cherish each day that the LORD makes. I will rejoice and be glad in each one of them! Will you?

******If depression is something you battle on a regular basis, reach out. It doesn’t have to be a doctor. But reach out. Someone will reach back, I guarantee that Jesus will!! You are worth living for!!*******

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